Thursday, August 28, 2008

Hmmm....Life

Today was Jan's funeral. She has been in my thoughts so much the last few days. I think more so than before she passed away. I have thought about her family also,her boys and her husband...Her sister,the grandkids...They all were so close to her. She was always talking about her family. I wonder how one goes on after the funeral.... How will Butch be after all the goodbyes are done? After all is said and done and there is that first minute alone to let one dwell on the world around them without the one they have had there forever. She wanted us to remember her and not be sad,but how does one do that?

Her funeral was beautiful and just what she wanted. She had her favorite songs sung and her favorite verses read,and BUBBLES!!!! That was just like her to have bubbles there. She was so full of life even at the end. The whole church blew there bubbles as the congragation walked out and everyone smiled. There was a beautiful lunch at the church with her favorite ice cream maple nut.....What a better way to celebrate her.....

Live,Love,Be Happy
Janet 6/20/43-8/24/08

Sunday, August 24, 2008

August 24th

Hmmm....Today is the 24th day of August 2008. A day we spent at the county fair.Eating carmel apples,and drinking lemonade. A day spent watching all the people laughing and having a good time. I love to watch people.... My brother in law took part in the Demolition Derby,like he does every year. So we spent the day watching the dirt flying by as the cars raced around the track.

Today is also marked as the day Janet passed away. It will always be known as the day Janet left us. Although,a sad day....She would have wanted us to be out doing things with our families. She was very much a family person. She was very special in many ways. I just cannot believe I will never see her again,to hear her laugh. There was always a reason to smile according to her.And there she was smiling!!! Now there will be no more smiles around the table at Stitch and Bitch from her.

Thinking back on all the memories of her.....I remember being at Tarri's.There are 5 of us in the S and B club. We were talking about whistling. I got to show all the different ways I could whistle.Jan wanted me to teach her how to whistle with my thumb and index finger.We all tried and tried for 20 minutes.Laughing so hard at how funny we all looked. Janet went on to show us how she could blow on a blade of grass and make a whistle noise. After what seemed like an eternity,I finally got a whistle noise!!!

She was....Is a wonderful,smart,cheerful,honest person. She loved to cross stitch and was very good at it. I am so lucky to have known such a wonderful person. I just can't believe she is gone. I will always have those wonderful memories and the photographs,but at the moment it doesn't take the pain away.

She was okay with dying,having had to deal with knowing it would happen soon.But she always told us it makes her sad to know that she will leave all of us behind and all the fun behind. I know that she is up there in Heaven dancing,cross stitching and laughing. She is not having to worry about the cancer that took her from us.It is no longer eating away at her body.....

So to Janet.....Thank you for all those memories.You are going to be missed by so many....But not to worry,you will never be forgotten.........

T.....